Hello everyone

I long time reading blog. I told before in mine previous post, but i guess repeat a bit.

approximately 5 years ago when i had periodic episodes of strong ocd from time to time, one day when i had especially severe ocd i got experienced what i presume was depersonalization. Depersonalization gone next day. But since that day, i barely able to sense  emotion and react to surrounding environment.


I kind of express typical reactions like laugh for example. But dont feel it as before. To some extent numbness to feelings.



Libido fine, i think actually very good if i dont touch it for few days for example. Even strong actually at times.

What most concerning though, i am not sure that i have good motivation.

strangely enough i do alot of studys each day neverthless, despite mine problems,  but i struggle to do them at times. And sometime hard concetrate i believe, not sure.
I guess i fatique relatively fast. And i want find solution to continue mine studies as effective as i can. i am not student, i mean free time studies like anatomy, 3d perspective and something like that.  


to some extent sometime  i feel much more abilities to experience emotions and feelings, but far from what was before.

I dont experience strong ocd episodes too as before,  i think.
And very rarely if at all.


So, what should i do? And maybe i need tell more about something to help understand situation. I am not sure what to tell about.





edit: and one question. Valproate seems to claimed to be restoring brain plasticity to childhood level .

Does there anything with similar effect and that also easier to obtain?



And is it dangerous to use it longterm?
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Rangiku wrote:I long time reading blog. I told before in mine previous post, but i guess repeat a bit.

approximately 5 years ago when i had periodic episodes of strong ocd from time to time, one day when i had especially severe ocd i got experienced what i presume was depersonalization. Depersonalization gone next day. But since that day, i barely able to sense  emotion and react to surrounding environment.


I kind of express typical reactions like laugh for example. But dont feel it as before. To some extent numbness to feelings.



Libido fine, i think actually very good if i dont touch it for few days for example. Even strong actually at times.

What most concerning though, i am not sure that i have good motivation.

strangely enough i do alot of studys each day neverthless, despite mine problems,  but i struggle to do them at times. And sometime hard concetrate i believe, not sure.
I guess i fatique relatively fast. And i want find solution to continue mine studies as effective as i can. i am not student, i mean free time studies like anatomy, 3d perspective and something like that.  


to some extent sometime  i feel much more abilities to experience emotions and feelings, but far from what was before.

I dont experience strong ocd episodes too as before,  i think.
And very rarely if at all.


So, what should i do? And maybe i need tell more about something to help understand situation. I am not sure what to tell about.





edit: and one question. Valproate  seems to claimed to be restoring  brain plasticity to childhood level .

Does there anything with similar effect and that also easier to obtain?



And is it dangerous to use it longterm?
----

Well - if you are worried about mainly lack of Motivation and Emotions; and are also looking for increases in "Brain Plasticity" you should look into Dihexa + Rasagiline.

Here is a good article on the Topic of Neurodegeneration and Neural Plasticity --> https://www.fightaging.org/archives/2012/10/treating-neurodegeneration-by-increasing-neural-plasticity/

Dihexa Study --> https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4201273/

The consider this article --> Reconsidering Anhedonia in Depression: Lessons from Translational Neuroscience : https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC3005986/

Study on Dihexa --> https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC4466175/